date: 4June, 1.06am
drinking: healthy, le eau.
eating: Chips.
mood: Content.
listening: I wanna touch you - All American Rejects.
reading: "How to get Things Done, without trying too hard" by Richard Templar.
random: hehe Kai is so fuccccccking cute.
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06 October 2009
if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open
~current mood: exhausted~
So this be the third sleepless night. Fuck. Slowly I'm slowly dying; from the inside out...
Well for the past couple nights I've been doing school work for long hours late at night, which cuts into my sleeping times. I thought that it would be ok to sacrifice my health for grades. That assumption is quite wrong.. as slowly I'm feeling the affects of the three hour naps that I take every morning in place of the ten hours. Work is almost piled to past my head, even though they are such easy courses. Maintaining balance in life is so fucking hard, that I just want to give up already. Prioritizing is so difficult when so many things and opportunities are constantly being thrown at you. Family, school, work:blood, knowledge, money. This is all the things I need to survive, nothing more, nothing less. This is what I need to motivate myself, without depending on anything else or anyone. But learning the concept is so hard, seems almost impossible really.
So last night I was working on my english questions that were due for today. TURNS OUT shes giving us a fucking extension. Nine hours of my time...taken for granted -_- Fuck. Oh how I hate being taken for granted..
ANY WHO
I'm so exhausted
tired
of
this
fed
up
with
everything
me
you
school
work
life
her
parents
worry
future
past
love
So this be the third sleepless night. Fuck. Slowly I'm slowly dying; from the inside out...
Well for the past couple nights I've been doing school work for long hours late at night, which cuts into my sleeping times. I thought that it would be ok to sacrifice my health for grades. That assumption is quite wrong.. as slowly I'm feeling the affects of the three hour naps that I take every morning in place of the ten hours. Work is almost piled to past my head, even though they are such easy courses. Maintaining balance in life is so fucking hard, that I just want to give up already. Prioritizing is so difficult when so many things and opportunities are constantly being thrown at you. Family, school, work:blood, knowledge, money. This is all the things I need to survive, nothing more, nothing less. This is what I need to motivate myself, without depending on anything else or anyone. But learning the concept is so hard, seems almost impossible really.
So last night I was working on my english questions that were due for today. TURNS OUT shes giving us a fucking extension. Nine hours of my time...taken for granted -_- Fuck. Oh how I hate being taken for granted..
ANY WHO
I'm so exhausted
tired
of
this
fed
up
with
everything
me
you
school
work
life
her
parents
worry
future
past
love