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30 October 2009
I get it, I live it, to me theres nothing realer
Oh back to that bitching again. I can't take it. Why am I so angry inside? It's not even sadness again.. it's bitterness. It feels like I don't have enough.. but when will I ever be satisfied? Is that even possible?
This guilty pleasure thats attaining need is fucking crazy. I can't ever learn because of my stubbornness. I don't ever want to learn, just know, cause its easier that way. No thought, nor consciousness really.
But who knows.
I want to know now.
Please tell me.
One explanation may be.. you are me. I am you. And that time is passing by too fast. When I just want it to stand here. Again. Replay this one moment, where I can tell you that I'm happy. That we are happy. Please don't ever cry.
This guilty pleasure thats attaining need is fucking crazy. I can't ever learn because of my stubbornness. I don't ever want to learn, just know, cause its easier that way. No thought, nor consciousness really.
But who knows.
I want to know now.
Please tell me.
One explanation may be.. you are me. I am you. And that time is passing by too fast. When I just want it to stand here. Again. Replay this one moment, where I can tell you that I'm happy. That we are happy. Please don't ever cry.